So these are the colours :) that paint is called half black white ;)
Saturday 26 January 2013
Coming together.
Sorry I am sure you will all be sick of me by about now BUT the house really is my life at the moment and choosing things is as well and it means we are nearly bloody there. The mortgage will be scary but do-able and well.. FUCK ( sorry) I am 30 in 3 months and my life is finally starting to resemble what I want it to look like so you can all here about it!!!
So these are the colours :) that paint is called half black white ;)
So these are the colours :) that paint is called half black white ;)
Well at least I can maintain ??
Hmm the scales at home were nice to me all week going down slowly, went out for dinner on Thursday drank 3/4 of a bottle of Kim Crawford Lite ( low alc low Calories, 2 pp for 150 ml ) and was fine yesterday to.... a 100 gram gain today on the scales.
There are a few things about my lifestyle right now that are well.. ummm NOT cutie cutie or ok.
I eat far far to much sugar, I move way to little and I have not entered the doors of the gym in weeks, its like I have grown this ideal of being scared of it. ( stupid woman).
So to remedy the gym issue, body PUMP I am going to visit you at 5 pm this evening, I dont care about anyone else I need to go for me, fantastically my friend is coming to ! Brave girl she is, or she just likes to laugh along with me. To make sure we are both back at the gym we are going again tomorrow to body Attack, we have been to this before and laughed our asses off as we are both not that co-ordinated so it is at least amuzing! But is an awesome calorie burn/point earner. So should kick start myself. Monday I will go for a walk at the beach, might try and make it 20-30 mins if I can and then tuesday another gym class, poss boxing. I need to find a routine that works for me, as well right now tracking alone isnt cutting the mustard. Saying this I can honestly say I have been 100% honest with myself for the past two weeks, it may not look pretty but I have been honest. I need to change a fair bit to get myself back to how I like to be, today I am going to try reduce the sugar intake and tomorrow I will cut it again. Hoping for a nice loss this week.
I have to TRACK and EXERCISE 4 times this week .. these are my goals.
On other fronts, the mortgage got declined on Monday, enter panick mode for me, and we got approved by another company on thusday and that is only subject to the title being realesed from the council and at this rate if it is not realeased anytime soon our house wont get started because we wont have planning permissione etc on time for them to start early April ( planning and consent can take up to 12 weeks, Well thats late april and they will breach the contract if its not done. But honestly I would rather they did not rush the house the longer we have the longer we can save for curtain, fences and landscaping ohh and furniture etc! So thats all good.
So waiting we are till we see the title !! Going to look at tiles and carpet today, may aswell look at these things and choose them so we can get the house moving once we have the title.
Finally got my sorry arse to the gym and loved it !! Was awesome pump class I love it and I'll be back there again this week, it was a split class 30 mins pump 30 mins of Abs. Loved both !! 6 exercise points thank you and foods been great :-) feel back in control finally.
We have tiles too !! Think we have decided on which ones as well. Going to get some test pots tomorrow for wall colours and next week we will look at carpet and bathroom fittings. Then once we pay some money we can go to the colour consultant and choose the outside colours and window and door frames . I think that's all .... Haha bloody jeepers
As for the inside we have a lounge sweat and a washing machine and a fair few kitchen bits and our bed .. So wee need stuff there too but it will come :) we have a birthday before we move in too :)
Who knows we might need to have an engagement patty to ... Maybe.. that ball is in someone elses court ..
Night night I'll post pics of tiles tomorrow :)
There are a few things about my lifestyle right now that are well.. ummm NOT cutie cutie or ok.
I eat far far to much sugar, I move way to little and I have not entered the doors of the gym in weeks, its like I have grown this ideal of being scared of it. ( stupid woman).
So to remedy the gym issue, body PUMP I am going to visit you at 5 pm this evening, I dont care about anyone else I need to go for me, fantastically my friend is coming to ! Brave girl she is, or she just likes to laugh along with me. To make sure we are both back at the gym we are going again tomorrow to body Attack, we have been to this before and laughed our asses off as we are both not that co-ordinated so it is at least amuzing! But is an awesome calorie burn/point earner. So should kick start myself. Monday I will go for a walk at the beach, might try and make it 20-30 mins if I can and then tuesday another gym class, poss boxing. I need to find a routine that works for me, as well right now tracking alone isnt cutting the mustard. Saying this I can honestly say I have been 100% honest with myself for the past two weeks, it may not look pretty but I have been honest. I need to change a fair bit to get myself back to how I like to be, today I am going to try reduce the sugar intake and tomorrow I will cut it again. Hoping for a nice loss this week.
I have to TRACK and EXERCISE 4 times this week .. these are my goals.
On other fronts, the mortgage got declined on Monday, enter panick mode for me, and we got approved by another company on thusday and that is only subject to the title being realesed from the council and at this rate if it is not realeased anytime soon our house wont get started because we wont have planning permissione etc on time for them to start early April ( planning and consent can take up to 12 weeks, Well thats late april and they will breach the contract if its not done. But honestly I would rather they did not rush the house the longer we have the longer we can save for curtain, fences and landscaping ohh and furniture etc! So thats all good.
So waiting we are till we see the title !! Going to look at tiles and carpet today, may aswell look at these things and choose them so we can get the house moving once we have the title.
Finally got my sorry arse to the gym and loved it !! Was awesome pump class I love it and I'll be back there again this week, it was a split class 30 mins pump 30 mins of Abs. Loved both !! 6 exercise points thank you and foods been great :-) feel back in control finally.
We have tiles too !! Think we have decided on which ones as well. Going to get some test pots tomorrow for wall colours and next week we will look at carpet and bathroom fittings. Then once we pay some money we can go to the colour consultant and choose the outside colours and window and door frames . I think that's all .... Haha bloody jeepers
As for the inside we have a lounge sweat and a washing machine and a fair few kitchen bits and our bed .. So wee need stuff there too but it will come :) we have a birthday before we move in too :)
Who knows we might need to have an engagement patty to ... Maybe.. that ball is in someone elses court ..
Night night I'll post pics of tiles tomorrow :)
Monday 21 January 2013
Not impressed with weigh in
Not a happy camper, my weight wont move at all ! Its just stuck and I went for a run yesterday and ate ok but no. ALSO last week I was good ate under a wee few but nothing magor! NOT impressed not happy just makes me grrr at my body and then... more determined to lose this god awful fat belly I have at the moment.
Wednesday 16 January 2013
Starting to feel a bit better as the numbers and my puku go down!
I feel bit better today about myself, my stomach is not as big but its still bit compared to before xmas. I am certain all the weight I have put on all went to the one place, its the place I do not like and possibly will never like due to skin etc etc. BUT it is shrinking.
I feel a bit better in general other than my back hurting like stink from lifting and carrying computers up and down stairs, I think in total I carried 10 lots down the stairs ( 2 flights) and 8 lots up the stairs, not sure my back was to impressed.
I am going to go for a swim today. I NEED to find my exercise mojo he must be berried under my tummy fat, as I just don't feel like BUT I know I love it once I get started.
Right breakfast for me !
I feel a bit better in general other than my back hurting like stink from lifting and carrying computers up and down stairs, I think in total I carried 10 lots down the stairs ( 2 flights) and 8 lots up the stairs, not sure my back was to impressed.
I am going to go for a swim today. I NEED to find my exercise mojo he must be berried under my tummy fat, as I just don't feel like BUT I know I love it once I get started.
Right breakfast for me !
Tuesday 15 January 2013
Going well :) three good days
Saturday was great at cricket I managed really well even came 2 points short. Sunday at the beach was hard, I wobbled a little but tracked everything, I can't in 7 points over. Yesterday was good came in bang on. Up this morning to go help W at work to install 55 computers and I feel good.
Weight today @ home was 94.2 (-1 kg since Saturday)
Things to improve on, yesterday I drank no water at all, so today I need to get in at least a litre of water, I also need to add exercise to my routine. I do have my pedometer on today for the first time in ages.
Weight today @ home was 94.2 (-1 kg since Saturday)
Things to improve on, yesterday I drank no water at all, so today I need to get in at least a litre of water, I also need to add exercise to my routine. I do have my pedometer on today for the first time in ages.
Sunday 13 January 2013
Beach day and all planned food wise :)
I planned my food and packed it all, we were up at 7 an to head to wenderholm for the day. They all had cooked breakfast I had my cereal & coffee happy as :-) have lunch sorted as well pre made and my snacks I don't need to eat anything but my food and Ma packed lots of fruit, all sorted.
I can do this.
I can do this.
Saturday 12 January 2013
Why ???
Why do I want to be a slim and in healthy weight range ?
I HATE my fat rolls, I despise it ! It makes me sick hanging there !! That is the main reason I want to lose weight, for vanity and to feel pretty and good in myself. Secondly I want to be healthy I want to be well and not over weight !
Why do I sabotage myself ?!
I think I get into a mode of ohh well I can do it next week or I can start again next week but this attitude needs to change, I have to try and "fix" it after the point or the next meal or day. I also have to stop setting myself up for failure and track and be accountable ALL the time.
Why is this so important to me ?
Why do I lose my control ?
I think it's stress .. The house stuff my family stuff all add up, but eating my feelings, that's really not helping me as then I get annoyed at myself for that as well, and it adds to the stress. I also think at times I get sick of being on a diet, like completely over it, then I remind myself it's not a diet it's a lifestyle! It is how I want to live and be and what's want for myself, then why do I not focus on that!
Why the excuses ?
I use them to explain away things, I am the only one who is accountable to my eating, W never ever says anything and would never. But sometimes I wish he would think but at the end of the day ... These are MY choices these are the things I want. So excuses no more. Do or do not there is no try!
What are you going to do now, give up or CHANGE?!
I have to change to create the outcomes I want in my life I have make choices not to live this way. I need to exercise it helps with my stress relief and helps me manage my food intake.
WEIGH IN - 94.7 @ weight watchers (95.2 @ home )
I HATE my fat rolls, I despise it ! It makes me sick hanging there !! That is the main reason I want to lose weight, for vanity and to feel pretty and good in myself. Secondly I want to be healthy I want to be well and not over weight !
Why do I sabotage myself ?!
I think I get into a mode of ohh well I can do it next week or I can start again next week but this attitude needs to change, I have to try and "fix" it after the point or the next meal or day. I also have to stop setting myself up for failure and track and be accountable ALL the time.
Why is this so important to me ?
Why do I lose my control ?
I think it's stress .. The house stuff my family stuff all add up, but eating my feelings, that's really not helping me as then I get annoyed at myself for that as well, and it adds to the stress. I also think at times I get sick of being on a diet, like completely over it, then I remind myself it's not a diet it's a lifestyle! It is how I want to live and be and what's want for myself, then why do I not focus on that!
Why the excuses ?
I use them to explain away things, I am the only one who is accountable to my eating, W never ever says anything and would never. But sometimes I wish he would think but at the end of the day ... These are MY choices these are the things I want. So excuses no more. Do or do not there is no try!
What are you going to do now, give up or CHANGE?!
I have to change to create the outcomes I want in my life I have make choices not to live this way. I need to exercise it helps with my stress relief and helps me manage my food intake.
WEIGH IN - 94.7 @ weight watchers (95.2 @ home )
Wednesday 9 January 2013
Bloody head cold :(
Bugger it I have woken up feeling more as than I did yesterday !!! Bloody annoying if I do say so myself !! I can hardly swallow!! Stupid glands and throat.
Today we need to apply for life insurance, contact the lawyer about the title and ring some of the sub contractors for the building company to make times to meet with them about everything. And start choosing some colours I really do like the Gray/blue from yesterday's blog like really like it. Might have to be a really like /want choice for me .. See wast W thinks and the colour lady in a few weeks time I guess :-)
I kinda feel like I have so much to do but I am unsure where to start.. Weird but rue also a little on edge I want the valuation back and the mortgage definatly approved so we can take a deep breath and move into being mortgage payers ( oh yay guess its made better as it's only for the land and gets bigger as house gets finished)
Ohh what do you all think about black and white for the kitchen ?? Black bench and splash back and white cupboard with chrome chunky handles ???
94.3 kgs today ( -900 grams since yesterday)
Today has gone ok considering I am sick and the stress that keeps being thrown my way.. thanks building company you cocked yet another thing up and now I have to scramble and get you to fix it and then you make me feel like its a HUGE issue.. yes our bank wants things screwed down.. they are a bank.. you would think they have never built a house for anyone who has used a bank to fund the build before.. so cross.. but trying not to eat that cross feeling instead venting out on Facebook and here, and to top it off the valuer rings and is like ops a bit behind and she hasn't even been to the section and she is soooo busy and blah blah.. I DO NOT CARE do your job lady !! I am paying you nearly a grand do you bloody job ! We need her valuation for the bank as well and we have to settle for the section on the 18th... and yes it is stressing me a little as I don't like waiting on people and things to get what I want, I like to be in control of things. Yes I am Taurus ! We are control freaks of the best kind!!
On the food front had lunch at 3:30 pm soo dinner will be something light might even have a yoghurt and fruit and a ice block its soo freaking HOT !! YAY HOT... haha yes I like being over cooked warm too. 1.6 liters water, more water needed.
A friend posted this on facebook.... I am going to "believe" that this house will eventuate !!
Today we need to apply for life insurance, contact the lawyer about the title and ring some of the sub contractors for the building company to make times to meet with them about everything. And start choosing some colours I really do like the Gray/blue from yesterday's blog like really like it. Might have to be a really like /want choice for me .. See wast W thinks and the colour lady in a few weeks time I guess :-)
I kinda feel like I have so much to do but I am unsure where to start.. Weird but rue also a little on edge I want the valuation back and the mortgage definatly approved so we can take a deep breath and move into being mortgage payers ( oh yay guess its made better as it's only for the land and gets bigger as house gets finished)
Ohh what do you all think about black and white for the kitchen ?? Black bench and splash back and white cupboard with chrome chunky handles ???
94.3 kgs today ( -900 grams since yesterday)
Today has gone ok considering I am sick and the stress that keeps being thrown my way.. thanks building company you cocked yet another thing up and now I have to scramble and get you to fix it and then you make me feel like its a HUGE issue.. yes our bank wants things screwed down.. they are a bank.. you would think they have never built a house for anyone who has used a bank to fund the build before.. so cross.. but trying not to eat that cross feeling instead venting out on Facebook and here, and to top it off the valuer rings and is like ops a bit behind and she hasn't even been to the section and she is soooo busy and blah blah.. I DO NOT CARE do your job lady !! I am paying you nearly a grand do you bloody job ! We need her valuation for the bank as well and we have to settle for the section on the 18th... and yes it is stressing me a little as I don't like waiting on people and things to get what I want, I like to be in control of things. Yes I am Taurus ! We are control freaks of the best kind!!
This Photo is the last day of 2012, I used instagram to take this one.
Again and instagram photo taken on 31/12/2012
St Clair beach Dunedin taken on 6/1/2013
A friend posted this on facebook.... I am going to "believe" that this house will eventuate !!
3.2 liters of water and pancakes for dinner. ( lemonade pancakes 3 pp each will post recipie of anyone wants it just ask.. YUM too. ) The whole family were like what are you having and I got a chorus of me too's, so we all had it with fresh fruit and I had a yoghurt as well. Was YUMMY as !!
I have has also been looking online for things to make for dinners and weight watchers have some yum as stuff, if I find anything I love I will post it here and again can give the recipie etc. My "Ma" is just vetting them for dinner ideas and we can go from there, so looking forward to that. I am going to try and come up with 15 odd things we can have for dinners so we get past this.. "What shall we have for dinner thing?"
Feel good about today, currently at 29/33 points but I may have something else.. if I get hungry otherwise. Nope !
night all..
me
Tuesday 8 January 2013
Why is it I eat my feelings ??
This is something that has struck me over the last few days, when things get hard emotionally I eat and eat and can't stop myself. I really just eat anything in sight even if I don't feel like it !!! I need to fine away to stop think and then make the best choice for myself. I need to go back go positive self talk and working through and talking myself through my food choices.
I also think I maybe addicted to sugar do I need to cut that right back out of my diet again. 3 points a day and that's all. I miss fruit and vegetables especially carrots so they need to come back on the menu and mix them up I also miss yoghurt !!
These things ill be eating today !! I Also will be cutting back on bread !
95.2 kgs today - time to change that 9 to an 8 !!!
Here are some photos I took in Dunedin.
Today is going well :) have 18 points left just gotta work on getting a fair bit more water in.. But today's focus was food intake. The question is ..... What to have for dinner !!!!
I hate dinners sometimes here as its hard and I at times have to cook just to get dinner made :/ which is ok if I want too cook. Think I might organise a dinner for tomorrow though.
I have to avoid the kitchen and the chocolates dumped on the coffee table in the lounge makes life a bit hard but positive talk to avoid is working well and hiding in out room.
Water intake pure water 2.4 litres and 3 cups of black coffee, so doing ok. :D
Dinner was eggs in toast with a salad, it was yum too. I am at 28 points for the day and I am happy with that, it's 8:40pm and the only other thing I may want is a cup of tea, which if W makes means I stay out of the kitchen. Which is away for the bloody pantry full ( yes still) full of junk food.
Looks like we will be heading to the zoo or out to do something on Thursday and then Friday beach trip, Saturday W has cricket and Sunday we will head to the beach again, these are all weather dependent and I need to come up with a plan for staying on track over these days but having things I want etc to eat. I have to weigh in on Saturday come hell or high water as I need to draw that line in the sand and move onward and make myself accountable again.
I think I need to make a salad for lunch on cricket days and take the equivalent of a "work" lunch., to cricket with me.
On a brighter note we are just waiting for the bank guy to get back to us now we have sent him everything he needs. We need to settle on the section in the 18th of January, eek but also yay! Also need to start choosing things for the inside and the rest if build process, taps and door handles and colours etc. need to make appointments sooner rather than later so we can get this to the council. Also looking forward to getting the valuation back as well.
Right going to watch a movie and go to bed.
Hope you are all good.
I really like this blue grey colour but it maybe to much for the hole house to be that one colour,
I also think I maybe addicted to sugar do I need to cut that right back out of my diet again. 3 points a day and that's all. I miss fruit and vegetables especially carrots so they need to come back on the menu and mix them up I also miss yoghurt !!
These things ill be eating today !! I Also will be cutting back on bread !
95.2 kgs today - time to change that 9 to an 8 !!!
Here are some photos I took in Dunedin.
Today is going well :) have 18 points left just gotta work on getting a fair bit more water in.. But today's focus was food intake. The question is ..... What to have for dinner !!!!
I hate dinners sometimes here as its hard and I at times have to cook just to get dinner made :/ which is ok if I want too cook. Think I might organise a dinner for tomorrow though.
I have to avoid the kitchen and the chocolates dumped on the coffee table in the lounge makes life a bit hard but positive talk to avoid is working well and hiding in out room.
Water intake pure water 2.4 litres and 3 cups of black coffee, so doing ok. :D
Dinner was eggs in toast with a salad, it was yum too. I am at 28 points for the day and I am happy with that, it's 8:40pm and the only other thing I may want is a cup of tea, which if W makes means I stay out of the kitchen. Which is away for the bloody pantry full ( yes still) full of junk food.
Looks like we will be heading to the zoo or out to do something on Thursday and then Friday beach trip, Saturday W has cricket and Sunday we will head to the beach again, these are all weather dependent and I need to come up with a plan for staying on track over these days but having things I want etc to eat. I have to weigh in on Saturday come hell or high water as I need to draw that line in the sand and move onward and make myself accountable again.
I think I need to make a salad for lunch on cricket days and take the equivalent of a "work" lunch., to cricket with me.
On a brighter note we are just waiting for the bank guy to get back to us now we have sent him everything he needs. We need to settle on the section in the 18th of January, eek but also yay! Also need to start choosing things for the inside and the rest if build process, taps and door handles and colours etc. need to make appointments sooner rather than later so we can get this to the council. Also looking forward to getting the valuation back as well.
Right going to watch a movie and go to bed.
Hope you are all good.
I really like this blue grey colour but it maybe to much for the hole house to be that one colour,
Thursday 3 January 2013
Going to visit my family and house stuff
On the 31/12/2012 we signed everything up for the house it's all conditional on money and valuations and the title coming through for the land. These things are all normal and we know we have the $$ to pay for the house and that the value is definatly there so not much to worry about but we still are. But I found a few exterior colours I like while going on our road trip beach trip yesterday.
What do you all think??
Going to Dunedin to see my family for 4 days ;) can't wait to see my nana and grandad :)
Yesterday, well actually all if December were not good progress on the weight loss front I am hoping a few days away and a weigh in ( time to just go yup done and move on) will help reset my brain. Looming forward to returning home to get into gym and running looking at 1.5 ish hours a day a run or interval training session and a gym class, 5 days a week until I go back up work then cut down to an hour a day :)
Weight today 94.7 kgs ( back to where I was this time last year)
What do you all think??
Going to Dunedin to see my family for 4 days ;) can't wait to see my nana and grandad :)
Yesterday, well actually all if December were not good progress on the weight loss front I am hoping a few days away and a weigh in ( time to just go yup done and move on) will help reset my brain. Looming forward to returning home to get into gym and running looking at 1.5 ish hours a day a run or interval training session and a gym class, 5 days a week until I go back up work then cut down to an hour a day :)
Weight today 94.7 kgs ( back to where I was this time last year)
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